As I showered today I stood under the hot spray thinking of how soothing and familiar the water felt I took the opportunity to meditate a bit.  I went with the feeling and imagined myself floating in warm water with no need to breathe, no concerns in the world, and no agenda at all for the forseeable future.  I put my head completely under the water and felt it envelope me in warmth and relaxation, and then raised my hands to catch the water as it fell.

I soon felt myself floating freely without even feeling my feet on the shower floor, and I imagined curling myself up into a fetal position.  I had the sensation of cleansing and preparation for a birth of sorts and inhaled the warm fluid that surrounded me as I felt my mind drifting along with my body.  I let myself feel totally protected as life went on around me but vaguely at a distance, and the sounds I heard were muffled and far off.  As I stretched my body back out and raised my hands over my head I felt a warm soft womb around me, and I felt the swish of fluid moving with me as I wiggled my fingers and toes in the warmth.   I twirled and swallowed the soothing fluid, and as I gently kicked off from the soft cushioning around me I thought of how I wasn’t sure what my original experience had been in a place like this. 

Was I welcomed, or was there yelling and anger when I was in a place like this originally?  I’m really not sure and as I considered it I realized that didn’t matter.  What mattered was that I can nurture myself now.  I can float, feel warmth and love surround me, and I can feel the softness of a womb that I can visit any time I like.  Yes, it is a wonderful thing to begin this life in a place of welcome and safety, but it is just as soothing and amazing that I know I can create my own place of comfort whenever I wish.  I smiled to myself as I bounced off the soft cushioning walls, did some slow flips and twirls, and thought about beginnings. 

We begin throughout our entire lives.  We are born, pass through infancy and start school, become a teen and then young adult, get jobs, maybe marry and have children, watch them grow and find their own beginnings, and along the way we begin each day with the possibility of making it the best we have ever lived.  We can create our own womb and nurture ourselves while we give ourselves opportunities to feel the love and welcome we all deserve.  It is within our power to float, kick, or squirm in that relaxing place at any time that we are stressed, confused or just need to cleanse ourselves and find a place to recharge. 

As I dried off after my shower I sighed with contentment knowing that I do not need to dwell on one particular beginning when I have the ability to create each day as it comes.  Now that’s a wonderful thing…the power to create our own beginnings.

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